I'm ending the weekend how I began it - tired, but feeling really good in spite of it.
I had another Kidz Klub today, run by my friend Johnny. It was his 20th birthday today, and one of my best friends Rebecca and I bought him cake and a card and present, he was all surprised and didn't expect it! Only four girls turned up, but we still had a pretty sweet party with music and orange juice! It was well fun. The Friday night Kidz Klub is good because there's 100 kids, it's loud and fast-paced. But I prefer the Sunday afternoon Kidz Klub because at most, we'll have 20 kids, and it's a lot more personal, and if we want to amble away from the structure and do something different, we can.
I had church tonight too - I really didn't want to be there. I wanted to be home, talking to Jon. I had a weird feeling tonight, although no-one was excluding me, but including me, of being left out. Since summer camp, which my whole youth group went on, and I didn't, I've had this feeling. They have stories and stronger friendships and memories that I don't have, simply because I missed a week-long camp. It's weird. I wish I'd gone, and yet I got to see Jon that week, so I dunno whether I'd wish I'd seen Jon if I had gone to camp. I didn't go to youth group after church, because I wanted to talk to Jon, and partly because of this left out feeling. But I'm going to need to start working on my friendships if I want it to go away, rather than sulking at home by myself.
Goodnight Blog, I have school tomorrow.
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